SGA // 01x09 // Home.
OMG this bit breaks my heart because the weird look on his face? Hammond just thanked him for his service, and from his reaction, nobody’s ever done that before and he doesn’t really know how to process it.
This man has been in the Air Force for at least ten years, to have achieved the rank he has— he’s served in Afghanistan, he’s watched his friends die. And nobody’s ever thanked him for his service or told him he’s doing a good job, before.
This is probably the moment where he first begins to figure out that this isn’t real. The others are all fooled for most of the rest of the episode, but this moment— John finds it unrealistic enough that a general would acknowledge his service that it starts to pry him free of the mist creatures’ illusion.
Because nobody acknowledges John Sheppard. Not in positive ways.
lol lol lol I think I actually expressed literally the same thing as this in one of my rambling incoherent liveblogs once
except that instead of analyzing it beautifully and rationally like you did, I just wrote ‘aaaaand John is like ‘hm a superior officer was nice to me SOMETHING IS HORRIBLY WRONG’
isn’t John also the only one who seems to have the ability to manipulate his fake world? because it wouldn’t really be a fucked up dream party if you couldn’t bring all your dead friends amirite
#I also love that Elizabeth realizes that something’s wrong because *other people* are behaving strangely#Rodney realizes it because the laws of physics are doing the hamster dance#while John seemingly notices something wrong in his own sense of self?#I DON’T KNOW AND THIS IS NOT EVEN FUNNY ANYMORE
STOP NO MY FEELINGS
John is so brave and smart, courageous and selfless, if you don’t love John Sheppard i don’t even want to speak to you.
I love how Rodney is in rage and break the ZPM.
I know, I just got FEEEEEEELLLLLS’d again looking at the picture.
John sort of lets it all come as it will, and the mist creatures are pretty obviously flailing— like, for Elizabeth, it was pretty easy to just pluck Simon out and throw him at her, there you go, happy guy, gives you presents, happy to see you, happy, your house, your dog, happy, easy! so it takes her a bit to be like… something’s weird here. [Apparently, happy guy tastes wrong. That’s not weird at all.]
Rodney, they’re like hot neighbor! your cat! Cheetos! TV! and it’s fine until he’s like Okay, time to Science, and they’re like, yeah ok we don’t understand science, um, let’s, um, hamsters dancing? and he catches on.
Ford, poor Ford, they give him basically nothing except “Hey, the Marines are fucking you over and Rodney doesn’t care.” But that’s pretty par for the course in terms of character development for Ford, so let’s just have Rainbow look like a kicked puppy, since he’s actually a really good actor but we don’t have any attention to spare for him. Um, sure, go follow Sheppard around. Shoo.
John, they’re like… uh, your… house? is, um, do you have one? give us a hand here, and he’s like… Sure. Sure, I have a house. It’s postmodern and made of glass and full of beer and expensive yet tacky tchotchkes. Sure. And they’re like… friends, um, do… do you have those? no? *looks through his brain for friends* Here, friends! and he’s like… those are dead friends, nice try, where are you going with this? and they’re like MORE FRIENDS and he’s like I don’t even know that girl but I’m gonna order a pizza before I shoot all of you because, see, a general was nice to me, that never happens and can’t be real.
And the mist is like, “Well, shit.”
But he’s not wrong. Generals aren’t nice to him. It never happens.
It kind of makes me think of how in Doppelganger Rodney’s like “I thought there’d be more hot girls [in your brain]” and John just sort of goes, “… Yeah.” No, there are not hot girls in John’s brain, Rodney. Only scary monsters that yell at him about his friends being dead and it all being his fault. No, that’s not the crystal monster, it’s actually pretty much like that all the time in there.
(and as sad as I am for Ford being underused, Teyla being caught in and dependent on someone else’s sense of reality is kind of creepy)